rawrr.

Easter Was Rather Good To Begin With..

how incredibly precious is that?

you all remember cousin Philip, right? hit by a car. present at Easter. what a surprise. i love you Philip--my absolute FAVORiTE guy cousin. Anthony and Philip would be great friends. skaters. guitarists. what a wonderful world this would be.
(^Philip is so good with children^)

be shocked. be disgusted. be amazed.
be disappointed. be excited. be proud.
be whatever you want to be. i don't care. i have stayed up late with tiny newborns. i have seen how bad breast-feeding hurts. i have eaten all the wonderful dinners people make you. i have smelled all the roses people give you. i have held an infant in it's peaceful, innocent, beauty. i have struggled through picking a name. i have witnessed blood drawn from the child's foot in order to be tested for a new-born skin color disease. i have soothed an infant's suffering into a peaceful slumber. i have spread the news.
then what am i missing? sex. time. pain. labor. love. morning sickness. sonograms. kicking baby in my womb. husband. total experience. patience. wisdom. understanding. responsibility.
after all that i'm missing, i still have a dream. vocation. passionate urge.
all i want is a baby.

DeLovely,
Dana Lizabeth Johnson <3

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